Joyful!

Let me start off by saying God is good! Even in hard times he is so faithful and just pours out blessings. This past week I had the privilege of having my stepmom and her best friend Kelly come out to see me in Kona. It was so much fun and we had a blast, we did so much. It was so awesome to get to share with her what i have been doing out here and show her my new life. I had to deal with a lot of things this past week so I thank God that she was here with me to help me get through those struggles. I do not know what i would have done with out her and Kelly. I was trying to process everything that was going on with my one on one Shawna on Monday. She helped me so much and then she just started speaking life into me and telling me that God has so many blessings for me and I need to receive them. I told her that I do not really know how. She started giving me situations where someone would bless me and asked me how I felt about them and I just said that it would make me really uncomfortable. I do not like people doing things for me I would rather do it myself. So, we talked about how God wants to bless and I should not feel uncomfortable about it but I said that I did not know how. So in Prayer Room on wednesday I just sat and prayed about how to receive God's blessings for him to teach me and make me feel comfortable with them. As I am laying on the ground praying and "soaking" (just laying in God's presence and letting him speak) I got this vision of a hand reaching into my chest and scrubbing all the what seemed to be barnacles off. Then the same thing happened to my brain. Then He started speaking to me so clearly. This is what he said,"Sarah you are a leader. Sarah you are a visionary. Sarah you are loved. Sarah you are beautiful. Sarah you are a helper. Sarah you are a servent. Sarah I love you. Sarah you are my daughter. Sarah you are my FAVORITE". Right when I heard that God just wrecked my heart and I started balling. I am God's daughter. I am God's favorite. I am God's favorite. What? I am just so amazed with that he loves me so much and I am his daughter. Our speaker Adam Cox had been speaking on God's story, the bible, and just blowing my mind with the things he has been revealing. Something he says everyday that continues to blow my mind is that we are all sons and daughters of Christ and every time that gets me. To know that Jesus loves me so much that he was willing to die for ME. What? He took the punishment for the life he couldn't live so that I do not have to have the death that I deserve. I have been so pumped about this and I realize that it is kind of basic knowledge when you become a Christian that you are a son or daughter of Christ and he loves you. But, when he reveals how much he loves you, there is so much joy that is unimaginable. I have never been so joyful in my life. The fact that I am God's favorite is just mind blowing. We are all God's favorite. Just to hear him say that and feel it in your spirit will just rock your world like it did mine. God is just giving me revelation after revelation and just changing my heart and making me so joyful that I seriously can hardly contain myself. People here have been asking me why I am so happy and my only response is Jesus. Yeah sorry about rambling but I am getting so hyped just typing this. Yeah God is good and he loves me and he loves you.