Thursday, January 12, 2012

HOME

Home.
Life COMPLETELY changed. God transformed me. 
6 months ago I would have been a selfish, self-absorbed, status driven teenager. 
Now I am a completely different girl. Who tries her best to put others before myself and chase after God with all I have and do what he has for me. Nepal....INCREDIBLE. God moved there and showed that he is a loving and faithful God. Hawaii....AMAZING. God placed the most amazing team and friends in my life to run with me. I was challenged and encouraged and convicted and freed from so many things while I was there and really got my life refocused on what I want to live for. 
To be honest life since I have been home, has been hard. I miss my team and my friends. I miss Nepal and the family I had there. I miss Kona and the atmosphere and running with radical Christians. Not waking up and seeing my teams faces everyday has been weird. God has really taken a hold of my heart and showed me that even though it is hard, I am home for a reason and I am supposed to be present here. While I am supposed to be excited and dream about Kona and where I am going next in life, I am not supposed to let it consume my mind and not be present at home.  Since I have been home I have seen how much I am needed right now in Rancho Cucamonga, California. With my family my stepfather Jeff fell off some scaffling and broke his leg. An open compound fracture. He has pins sticking out of his legs and is looking at at least one more surgery. Life is not going to be easy for him the next couple months and I have been helping out as much as I can for him. Jobs that he normally does I do now and making sure he has water and food while my mom is at work. God has used me a ton in this situation with my mom. Being with her and having this situation get out things that have needed to be talked about that we have always avoided. Also, my relationship with Jeff has changed in such a positive way. Watching my parents in this situation not do certain things because the want to be Christlike and chasing after God will all they have and covering themselves in prayer. I have gotten to pray for stepdad multiple times for healing. Something that I have realized in this is that the God of Nepal is the same God of Rancho. If God can heal a blind man or a lame man then God can heal a broken leg. Through this Jeff has had great spirits and thanking God everyday that this is just his leg and that he is taken care of. God is in this situation. I am so thankful that I have a family who has a relationship with Jesus. 
Friends. Friends have been so great and supportive and so happy to listen about Nepal. I have had a blast getting to share with everyone the crazy stories that I myself continue to get shocked by. I have been so busy going to coffee and lunch with people it has been so awesome getting to share that experience with people and  have my testimony touch their lives. 
God is using me here and i see that now. While I am so excited for the future I am so content with being in the here and now. 

God continues to reveal himself to me. Podcasts, bible, worship and sitting at waiting for him to show up. He continues to speak and continues to come. He spoke this to me. "You are my daughter and I love you. Dedicate 2012 to me." What does that entail? Through prayer I found that I was supposed to dedicate the year to him by giving up certain things and committing myself completely to what he has for me. So the month of January I am committing myself to praying and fasting to see what the year of 2012 is supposed to look like. I would love for you to join me in this. I am so excited to see what God has is store. 
My verses for the year of 2012.
"The light of eyes rejoices the heart, and good news refreshes the bones" Proverbs 15:30 ESV
"The reward for humility and fear of the lord is riches and honor and life" Proverbs 22:4 ESV
"And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him" Hebrews 11:6 ESV
"You are my witnesses,' declares the Lord, 'and my servant whom I have chosen" Isaiah 43:10 ESV

All these verses mean something to me and show that I can have a relationship with jesus and be joyous even when it is not always easy. Something a good friend of mine said in a bible study was, "the word of God is active and living. It is active and living because the author lives inside of you". Every day that I read about the things that Jesus did I continue to feel astonished and grateful that the man that did all these things lives inside of me and i actually have a relationship with him. Knowing that I have the hope of heaven gets me through every day. 

So i want to end this with a thank you. Thank you for following me on this journey and praying for me. Your prayers mean more to me than you will ever know. God has stolen my heart and I am so ready for what he has for me and so in love with him.  

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